i’m sure no words hurts worse how come i couldn’t have thought first/

now i’m stuck as i see our friendship being taken away in a locked hearst/

it’s too bad your wishes were not heard but my mind took control of my heart/

from the start i wished that in my life you would always play a really big part/

i scribe the tales of a man that lacks the words or actions to formulate an apology/

i would never consider each other a singular entity to me it was always you and me/

just saw what we could conquer from molehills to mountains and we would do it together/

from the way your body fit in mine to the brighest smile you could give me is what i’ll remember/

i know my chances are slim but i what to begin where we started when i didn’t know your name/

i want it to be the same as it was when we didn’t know each others past or their pain/

that first time our hands touched or that point when i couldn’t take my gaze from yours/

hands held tight we locked eyes before we locked hearts as my whole body yearned for more/

i don’t think i have much to say but as i sit here and i rot away/
i know for a fact that it’s because how you live i choose not that way/
i continue to be lost in a game i can’t find the answers to win/
it saddens me that my sister liberty can’t fight the cancers within/
i see the law sway the wrong way it’s always the same song thats played/
you think it’s the truth they speak but i see them go through a dishonest phase/
i place no trust in officals that in my digust lust over the almighty dollar/
i face unjust eventually it seems the world will just be thrust into squalor/
i keep searching for a solution coasting with rebellion just trying to make it through/
it’s too bad your fate with prove to be quite foolish as you continue to hate the truth/
the right would consider me one of satan’s youths so where does that leave me/
maybe it’s what i read be the cause of my frustrations as i set my beliefs free/
our minds are sick and twisted by the biggest business the stranglehold is a tight one/
our air supply depleted quick our freedom nipped i can’t even force myself to like some/
but when you get that deep breath you cherish it we need to think that way with every exhale/
it’s too bad sex sells just hope respect prevails as our people become wary and frail/

my goal is to uphold the moral code of my ancestors so we can break this horid mold/
i don’t think i’ve sold my soul we need to remove the homeless from the morbid cold/
i plead to a god can you please make it stop i am starting to feel our ethos is lost/
but i won’t seek the cross you speak of i would welcome your ideas if it wasn’t for the cost/
i don’t understand tithing while those barely surviving are writhing in pain outside the church/
just waiting til you cop that new ride a hearst i can’t say why most hide their worth/
myself is who i confide in first and the first person that i lied to and denied the truth/
but conflict resolution isn’t a solution that works well for me since i was a youth/
is the news that bleak or have we confused atheletes and actors as something they are not/
it doesn’t just matter if your car’s hot i have my sniper scope and i’m set up for the far shot/
bodies dropped my passion has hardly stopped my heart is scarred a lot and i’ve lost my thoughts/
just hoping i have no recollection of each imperfection my soul knows and tries to block/
is the future as bleak as my mind knows the past haunts to remind those dying slow/
i can’t stand alone with idle folk but must live with the decision of what side i chose/
it seems the lies are from those that ride the cloak of secrecy what i’ve wrote is peace to me/
the struggles are easy to see all i can hope for decency and for me to at least be free/
the stage is set from now until we are all laid to rest in that place that graves are kept/
you think the government has paid their cheques we need to stay on watch for what they are faking next/

as i search for the answers the thrist for knowledge seems powerless as we age/
as we turn the page on another year we must now learn to set the stage/
from sqaulor to fame the fallouts the same who wants their dreams the american way/
the current world and it’s ways makes me scared to say that i’ve been dared to pray/
can we change our path or do we need to endure the stress and hate our past/
so now do i continue to write my wrongs or try to right my wrongs too fast/
we will all soon pass so do you choose to uplift our people or something equal/
let’s just not pray on the bleak few and try not to herd the meek that seek the steeple/
what does god teach you that love is conditional and you should take how people treat you/
do you want to live like this i don’t think so so go out of your comfort zone and seek truth/
where does the journey take me i’m aching for simplicity in my daily routine/
the truth hurts i can’t seem to talk through things one day i hope i can come clean/

as the tears stream and love escapes this wounded heart/
if i dont feel the pain of missing you im sure it soon will start/
ive lost in my life the newest part its going to be truly hard/
i can make few remarks about how i feel cause my heart is newly scared/
if fate brought us together im sure miracles can occur twice/
im sure i heard right when she called me the most important thing in her life/
and they are my sentiments exactly i hope we see each other soon/
our eyes locked hands together and out lips will meet under the moon/
the passion will never cease even when the distance makes me think it will fade away/
goodbyes i hate to say at least i can remember when your smile made my day/
or how our bodies moved in rhythm to the beat of our souls/
or how our hands fit perfect and yours is the one i need to hold

i’m life changing but not law abiding my hands are scarred from writing/
i’ve seen what the prophets have searched for but my vision marred my sighting/
i’m not blind but reminded that without blinders you get scared of the truth/
but not by fiction time we face the facts and it’s about time we dared our youth/
we aren’t headed in the right direction lost on this atlas like columbus/
your words chosen in generally are horrendous but i’m great at this i’m stupendous/
exploring the subterrean landscape what this hand makes will decide this man’s fate/
i still seal deals with a handshake they must be after humans that they can sedate/
easily adaptable it’s practical to force the masses to practice what you preach/
but it’s the greed you actually seek as i see these factions formed by the weak/
you know the individual a benz with tinted windows though and his fists are full/
of bills it’s quite miserable to show that i know more than our elected officals know/
i’m not saying i’m a mensa member but i know that legal tender tempts the honest type/
there’s two things about me i get along with night and even when i’m wrong i’m right/

A friend wanted to me to touch on the idea of suicide, so I decided that I would let my brain wander into the unknown. I don’t condone this kind of action, but I’m sure we have all thought about a better place at one point or another.

is it a cop out how about we hop out of our bodies just for a second/
do we make the right choice we all know it’s the devil that beckons/
or is it our time to go i know my mind will know when death becomes me so/
my life at times is slow as the knife draws bloods and those cuts do show/
but who will show that they care when the air is drawn from my wilting body/
as my body gets cold there goes my soul my heart my mind as i kill things softly/
but often our kind is misjudged but i have distruted this path i’ve chosen/
i shed societies mold when i was told at ten that my heart was molten/
that it had melted alongside the feelings i had about the life i had lead/
forcefed until i was confirmed dead mislead about the image i wish i could shed/
they even tried shock therapy and apparantly that didn’t work as planned/
and made me take whatever they thought would cure what ails as my throat was crammed/
with pills with names i couldn’t pronounce but they sure made me feel numb/
the doctors i wish i could grill them they didn’t know that they will kill some/

A brother of a friend passed away, I had lots of thoughts on my mind and this is what it produced. Rest in peace to everyone that has gone early.

sure seems that the best are leaving no matter what they believe in/
it doesn’t matter what you’re preaching but to me they are gone for no good reason/
i don’t think they are seeking a better place and to me you said it’s fate/
as the bright ones depart to the grave early it does make our heads rotate/
should we break down and cry or sort out our lives and continue to soldier on/
we can’t hold on strong now that our family, best friends, spouses, and lovers are gone/
what did we do so wrong that this pain is felt so long we question ourselves/
one day i’ll be resting near as we shed a tear on the plot that’s been delved/
and now their wealth is the smiles, laughs, and joy spread amongst by all/
i’m still trying to figure out why it’s their name their lord needed to call/